i believe i can fly
written at Friday, February 29, 2008
mood- SMILING!! =Dmusic- I Believe I Can fly BY ME FIRST AND THE GIMME GIMMESMEET THE SPARTANS was as hilarious as it was awful. Period. WTF la. Well, it got some good moments but seriously as it says itself, its just a cheap lame movie. Oh ya, to the people who went home early when the credits start rolling, too bad for you guys coz theres still some actions. Funny actions to be precise for the next 15 mins or so. Hahas. Oh the breakdance spoof was awesome actually. hahahas.
Well overall I'd give the movie a 2/ 5. Pretty bad eh.
Well too bad.
NATIONAL LIBRARY AND ILLUSTRATOR
written at Thursday, February 28, 2008
mood- enjoyablemusic- End of The Road BY BOYZ 2 MENHaha. Today was quite actually enjoyable. Went to National Library. Together with the two Joannes. Taught the one studying in NAFA Illustrator. Well, its pretty messed up in the first place anyway. I can't seem to color it properly. And soon after got tired of teaching. HAHAs. I make a sucky teacher I think.
Ate at SAKAE SUSHI. YAY!! SALMON SUSHI!!! WHOO!!! I don't really eat fish but that was an exception. Its really good laaaa!!
Hmm. Well that concludes my day.
Before that though. Another piece from me :-
HEX ARROWS
I'm in love with black and white designs!! This is my second try and I think I'm getting better at this. You can have a look at my dA ---------
art-z Well then.
Signing off.
Cheers!!
MOLEST!
written at Sunday, February 24, 2008
mood- tiredmusic- Bleeding Love BY LEONA LEWISCeleste got molested. WTF. I was there. Well, somewhere there but was too late by the time I got to her. And I didn't do anything to that fucker as well. Coz, I guess I was in my mind scared to be banned from the club. Zell told me not to do anything. I was ready to go though. That fucker got what he deserved. 3 FUCKING TIGHT SLAPS FROM CELESTE. Don't tell me he's drunk. If he could say sorry and admit he touched then it makes you wonder... hmm. And its not once. Its not twice. Its three fucking times!! MY BEST FRIEND AIN'T THAT SLUTTY U BASTARD. Now, the problem is, pursuing will take alot of toll on her. And money. Lawyers. Expensive. And if were to continue, I'd bet that her mum will know about this and will do all she could to press charges. Considering the monetary state their in, I don't really recommend that option. Hmm... well, I do want that fucker suffer the humiliation. ARGH!!
FUCK LA!!! I CAN'T BELIVE I LOST MY WALLET AGAIN!!! SHOULDN'T HAVE GONE CLUBBING LA!!! Then Shit won't happened. It happened rite in the beginning as though to tell me not to club or something bad will happen. First I can't find my black pants. Coz my mum put it in my bros wardrobe. It was hell finding it! Then I spilled Milo on myself at mac. GOSH THAT WAS STUPIDLY EMBARASSING!! And after that, Celeste got molested. And I finally lost my wallet... Aw man the shit that happens. COuld I just say, well thats life?
Shrugs.
Sigh...
EYEBALLS
written at Friday, February 22, 2008
mood- getting back on trackmusic- Warmness On the Soul BY AVENGED SEVENFOLDToday was a slow day. Very slow to be precise. And add to that, its hot too! Ahhhh...
It was on this slow day that i discovered something incredible. Well actually its more like incredibly gross. So to speak. It was at pantry when Aida started poking the salmon's eyeball. WHAT THE HELL??!!! And she said that people EAT those eyeballs... To quote Rhea " EWWWW" would be most appropriate right now. Suck on the insides of the eyeballs and slimy?? BLEARGH!!
AW MAN, that was frightening.
Eyeballs.
Hmm....
last letter
written at Tuesday, February 19, 2008
mood- depressedmusic- nonerhea, ull prollly dismiss this letter riteawae, but i hopeu dunt. for this is wad im thinkin, and this is all i have left.
im sorry tat u mistook it the wrong way. and im sorry i mistook wad u were trying to say.how shd i know. u were saying things liek neither am i a fan of someone who restricts me and im not stupid. u were til u was like tat.. how am i supposed not to think tat u werent talking along these lines when u were saying like tat. u prolly wont even look at me from now on. u prolly wont think abt me either. maybe for u its normal. for me u were everythinig. u took my heart awae on that first day. and now im left wit hnothing. memories la. im moving on. I am. it may not matter to u anymore. but it matters to a whole lot. y wld i tell ppl i had a a gf? coz im damn proud of it. coz im excited of the prospects. coz i tot finally theres light inside the tunnel. coz i tot my bad luck finally ends. i know first hand wad kind of person u are. for all the times u say i was stupid, i was stupid enuf to fall for u on tat very first day. BUT! i love every single moment of it. maybe things wld be different had we got tghr in july. coz by then id be schoolin and we wunt be seeing each other much and so teh chances of me cling clingy are slim. buts tats just wishful thinkin for we are going nowhr now. IM SCREAMING AT MYSLEF RITE NOW, ITS OVER GET ON WITH IT!!!! if its tat simple, den all my problems wld go awae everytime i do tat. but does it?!!!! i may behave immature, but i do have an adults thinkin no matetr wad u may think. so stop saying it dosent matetr it dosent matter! it matters to me coz u mean that much. i dunno when and how these things started, 080108 till prolly 080208. we may broke up on teh 14th la. but i know we werent already talking on teh 08. liek just now even though u see me not a hi, but just a quick walkawae with val and completely iognore me.. how am i suposed not to think tat u were disgusted with me. WAD DID I DO?!!
I didnt think of ur situation liek on the phone and stuff. wad does tat mean???????? eveytime u talk to me i listen to u pertinently. i listen. ok i listen!!!! wad do u mean i dunt do anything. i tell u some of the solutions i had in mind. liek telling off ur superior coz shes not doing rite! but u alwaes go on saying tat no my solutions is way off. not gd! im trying to help. but got brushed aside. and now u say tat i dont think of ur situation like on the phone. i cried ok everytime i cant help u. im helpless coz theres a boundary between ur work place and me. wad u wan tme to tell ur sup tat shes doing smt wrong?! if i do tat wad position wld u be in. y teh hell wld i travel so far just o cheer u up. wasit bcoz ur my gf? its coz i care abt everything!!! again! i took ppl for granted. i beleive wad u said. i belive tat wed be together. but shit happens. life throws u a curveball esp when u least expects it. and i damn hate that curveball coz i can never anticipate it. u wunt give a care abt this letter here. its all over. i know. but wheres teh communication in the first place??? theres damn lotsa flaws in the relationship la. but im not one to complain. coz i follow my heart and not my head and this is how i ended up. id give my gf complete freedom. tell me, kick me in teh face taht ull break up if we see each other, tell me seriously. everytime i talk with u, its alwaes been laughing. the lines between seriousness and jokes gets blurred. Still tell me. dunt go telling ur bf tat you guys are special when really u tink its just normal. guys do have feelings too. i have feelings too. how shd i knwo tat ur feelings dosent fade. wad u say then and what u say now, are completely not in sync at all.its way off. i love u guys. i loved u. with all my heart, i did. but. i tink now i can really let go. im feeling tat prolly tis just a puppy crush for u. im not rying to save this rsn. this rsn is over. prolly maybe i was hoping for achance, a miracle. because tehy say, if u love someone, set them free, and if tehy came back to u, its meant to be. u know i actually tot of wanting to pierce my tounge tghr wit u. tot id leave it a secret or smt. but in the end didnt get a chance to tell u. dont go saying things like if u can move on, den u shd. u shd knwo better. its not tat easy to let go of someone u dearly love. tat soemone ud pour everything to.
girls are troublesome u said? cmon la. life is troubleosme rite in teh beginning. what do u knw anywae. wad do u knw wat ive been thru anywae. prolly will say, dunno dun care, ya? did u know im useless in my family? in my mums eyes? in my fathers presense? did u know tat? even though i werked so hard to get into express stream they still called me stupid? dunno dun care ya? i know frst hand wad troublesome means so stop sprouting nonsense when u dunno anything yet.
well whatever. liek u said. its over. get a grip art. get a grip.
sigh watever. for everything i did i did it for u. without any regrets or watsoever. and i stand my ground.
if u got smt to say, do reply. sigh.
yours,
art
EMO
written at Monday, February 18, 2008
mood- emomusic- More Than Words BY FRANKIE JIf u love someone, set them free. If they return to u, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with. A great love is when you shed tears and still cares for him & still longs for him. He begins to love another and yet you still smile and say " I'm happy for you " (: The worst thing in the world is seeing the one you love with the one they love. You always love the ones who leaves you and leaves the one who loves you. Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand. Not what you see but how you feel and not how you let go but how you hold on. A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other. Maybe temporary, maybe at wrong time. Maybe too late, maybe ... just maybe ... forever.
I'm being emo. Just dazed and think about things. About life. About the past. About the hardships of life. Relationships ain't just a status.
Sigh.
SENTOSA FLOWERS SUCKS!!
written at Saturday, February 16, 2008
mood- tiringmusic- International You Day BY JOEY CAPE AND TONY SLYI'm sorry that it took so long to write this song but I gave up You see one million words can't describe how it feels To know your love Where did I go wrong? I should have told you from the start That I'm closer than you think when we're apart Nothing that I've tried is as simple as this time Without you My life is incomplete, my days are absolutely gray And so I'll try Let your heart know for sure That i have so much more to tell you every single day I swear I'm giving up my inside to the one That I adore I know this world is big enough for you and I But I'll give you more I'm coming home today To wipe the teardrops from your eyes I'm totally enamored by your life Nothing that I've done has ever been for one Without you my life is incomplete My days are absolutely gray And so I'll try Let your heart know for sure That i have so much more to tell you every single dayMy life is incomplete
My rights are absolutely wrong
So wake me up
Before you leave today
Something i need to say
Cause there'll be nothing when you're gone
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WORK IS TIRING!!!!!!!!!!!! But it was fun though. There was no stupid people. Only beautiful ones were there. LOL. Right. But BT was hectic. I actually had to "travel" up and down the chairlift line la!! And both times the flops weren't there!!! One drop after tower 2 and one right at the beginning or so they say la. Which ended up being untrue!!! Tiring!!
Instruction area was funny. There was this girl who asked me what she did coz i was like pointing at her(I'm bad, I know). And I heard wrongly and thought she said my boobs. LOLOLOL. And i was like "huh? Ur boobs??? " HAHAHAHHAHHAS.
Ah well. I'm dead poor. I'm a poor fuck. 10 bucks to last till Thursday night can. DOTS luh...
WHY DO THEY ALWAYS HAVE TO DELAY PAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SIGH....
OH Rab's coming back soon. The chief Satan. Back and I'm sure it'll get weirder every moment. HAHAHHAHS.
Swing sensation
written at Friday, February 15, 2008
mood- swingmusic- Secret Base ~kimi ga kureta mono~ BY ZONEI'm pissed. I feel like either I'm against the world or the world is against me. Whichever, I don't know. Everything I do turns to nought now. My parents angry with me for having this haircut. But I love it though. I was even complimented by a stranger. Don't go saying that I'm old and that this kinda thing doesn't suit me. Well for your info, mom, dad. You guys are idiots for putting me in a shackle when I was young. You expect me to behave now? Now I'll do what I do so I'll leave with no regrets.
You guys don't know me.
I'm quite sad by that.
Really.
We don't really look liek a family if I really think about it.
How should I talk about things when all you ever do is condemn every little thing I do?
Bleah. Whatever. This life of mine is going downhill anyway. The light in the tunnel fading fast.
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mood- sad. relief.music- Let's Go On (Cherie) BY SARA THOMASAnd so the inevitable happened. Me and her are no longer an item as we move our separate ways for now. I guess it was bound to happened somehow given that I was new in relationships and things. I was too clingy and I regret for doing that. Insecurities aplenty. Thats the only explanation for doing what I did. Sorry about that.
Well I can only try and better myself. For there is only one that I truly love. For there is only one in my heart. I'll try again when the time is right. Or rather, when the chance comes to me once again. Although oppurtunities only knock once, Ill be optimistic of what the future maybe. If the chance arrives, you can be sure I'll grab it with both hands never to let it go again.
For now though I guess I'll try recovering from the shock.
But don't worry about me. Coz I'll be fine. =D
3 cheers to Her and Val. For they made me believe I was really alive.
And to Val. Thank you for being there for her always. You're a Godgiven. =D
Will miss you guys. Will miss those days of your utter nonsense.
Cheers for the big guy here who will try to live up to the expectations.
With Love.
Art.
Valentines Day
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mood- Happy!! VALENTINES DAY!! Slightly sad too. music- Priorities BY PLAINSUNSETIn my dreams
Magical thoughts..
All things are real
Unless I dream they're not
In my dreams
Love is the plot..
Carried on the wings of hope
Each of our souls
Intertwine, when we do
Instantly we see it
The time to grow and be it
When everything is pinned on a hope
Let rise the dreams of your heart
Of innocent youth,
Careless and kind
Free to roam the breeze in love
Only when two
Brilliantly shine as one..
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Was actually desperate in getting the White Lillies. Heard that White Lilies represent love and strength to carry on through adversity. Pocket Full of Posies was fully booked. So made my way to HarborFront Center. Lucky they still have it. Think mine was the last or something.
Was super nervous meeting Dear. Already waiting for her to end work was like waiting for a time bomb to explode. The suspense. LOL. Imagine meeting her. My knees were shaking la. My voice trembled a little bit. Haha.
Oh well.
Thats all for my Valentines Day. But I'm happy. Kind of. A little.
Sad coz we weren't able to spend much time together.
Well, guess things happened for a reason, and i don't think I should dwell on it anymore. It'll only make things worse.
I'll wait for her still if she wants to.
This ring will still be on my Left index.
Thats all I've got to say.
Clueless
written at Thursday, February 14, 2008
mood- no idea wad mood i am in now.music- Solitary BY 20 DischangerI know I've been too clingy. And I also know that I'm being naive. Theres a high probability of what the outcome maybe. But I dunoe anything abt relationships seriously. I'll be honest. The current gf I had, is only my second. And my ferst was 6 yrs ago. Lasted not even a month. Thats the truth. I was too embarrassed about it. Right now I'm at breaking point. What should I do.
I don't have a clue.
I'm tired.
written at Sunday, February 10, 2008
mood- dead tired. slightly annoyed. slightly irritated. slightly sad.music- Revolution BY AUTHORITY ZEROSometimes things happened for a reason. Maybe reasons oblivious to me. But the trials, errors and tribulations serves a purpose testing my resolves and also my beliefs. I worked hard. But the results are abnormal at times which can be infuriating. Honesty is prolly the best way out. But speaking out loud, I just can't find the right words to say what I really wanted to say. Its like that song from
OASIS:- "Don't Go Away." The lyrics goes something like this:-
"~Damn my education I can't find the words to sayAbout all the things caught in my mind~"Hmm yea. Not quite. But something like that.
Let's be honest.
Obviously I'm jealous of her friend whom she affectionately calls Sayang. Of course I'm scared. Its her crush. But. Its not like I'm gonna do anything about it. Its her friends. Her freedom. And besides I trust her. She said so herself taht she loves me. And so I'm gonna trust her. =D Which is the most important thing in a relationship I think. I love every single thing about her.
Her eyes. Her smile. Her laughter. How she listens to me. Her humor. Her nonsense things she does. Her sexiness. Her body. Her kiss. Her hugs. Everything. I do believe that I'm lucky to have her. But also sometimes coz of my jealousy I feel like we drifted apart alil bit. But got together in an instant. And falls back drifting apart before we got together again.
This Ring on my left index finger knows it all. I'm jealous of her supervisor too. He gets to send her home and she likes it that way too. Wish I had a car. Then I can sent her home all I want! But of course. A dumb, stupid person like me didn't think cars and private transports are necessary. Well. Stupid me of course. But that was before i was in a relationship. LOL. How long has it been? 6 years? Yea. I've been fickle minded in loving someone. But I have met the ONE. The
ONE SINGLE GIRL WHICH I TRULY LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART. I even stopped clubbing even though I love dancing. I don't think its appropriate for me to club coz when I club, I needa dancing partner and dancing with orther girls when I'm in a relationship? NAH! No thanks. Till the day she's eligible to club, I'm gonna wait for my chance to ask her for our first dance.
So its month and three days since our love life began to intertwine. Been a great first month. Hope it'll get better from here on out.
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SENTOSA LUGE IS GETTING MUCH TOO POPULAR I THINK!! SO DOES RIZMAN!! Being the pioneers we have seen much change to Luge. Coz of the dreaded Night Luge, we ended up working late which is tiring. For the festive season, CNY we prolly raked in millions of bucks. Total rides prolly was about 18000? With Saturday being the record highest or rides with 5724! Compare that to our normal average of 1.5k? Thats like 5 times upfold. The Ang Mohs must be happy. Money minded freaks. They would even hire a lorry to transport the Luge up coz the skyride broke down.
I won't have my off anytime soon. Gonna gamble and work really hard. Perseverance pays. And I'll have mine duly soon. An N81. A trip to Japan. Land of all things "Kawaii". Whoo. Found an MP4. Lousy but still good enough to use it. Just don't let people know what I'm using. LOL
FUCK YOU LYNDON THOMAS
written at Thursday, February 7, 2008
mood- super angry music- Don't Go Away (Acoustic) BY OASISThis happened yesterday but I'm still very angry about the whole thing. What the fuck.
WTF! when someones on MC, and approved by the supervisor then why the fuck should I come?
Just cause I came to return the ASA card dose not mean that I'm eligible to work. Well, come to think about it, is that even allowed in the context of Singapore Laws? given, I didn't went to the doc. But calling back someone coz the PM shift is shortage of manpower thats something I would not do.
I'm super piss off coz of this.Whats the problem with Sentosa LUGE and Skyride? Its not as rosy as alot of people think it is. Politics . FUCK SENTOSA LUGE. I'm gonna go back school and get my diploma in design, and I'm outta here!
Fuck all this shit!! AND FUCK LYNDON TOO! FUCK HIM! FUCK OFF AND DIE!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well, a day more to our first month anniversary.
This relationship still going strong.
And I'll pray that it stay this way forever.
Wishing time would stop every time I'm with her.
She is my Dear.
One I would give my life for.
Hearts to her.
Love you always.
UNDERWATER WORLD
written at Tuesday, February 5, 2008
mood- happy / lovedmusic- Hit The Road Jack BY TOKYO SKA PARADISE ORCHESTRAWheres the sun when u need it??!! Was supposed to go tanning with Dear, and Val but it rained and theres no sun and weather was cold so back to sleep. HAHAHAHAS.
Changed timing to 1230 but guess 1230 is still too early so changed to 1400 which by then I was still sleeping.. By the time reached Toys 'R' Us Vivo its already 1530 which is half an hour later then the time we were supposed to meet. Gee. I can never seem to be on time. Nor with work or with my
GF. ARGH!!!
Went to Underwater World.
UNDERWATER WORLD IS SO DAMN FUN!! The touch pool was cool. But feeding the stingrays!! WOAH!!! And I have to agree with Dear that u can probably spent the whole day admiring the fishies. Oh ya, the stingrays look like that killer from "SCREAM"
TO MY DEAR, I love u a whole lot. No one and I mean no one can take that away from me. For my love is real. For you are the one for me. And like you, I'm just as glad that we had that chance encounter.
3 days to First Month Anniversary.
For all the things you've done for me, for all the little things you did for me, for all the love you've given me, I will cherish you with my life. If me being there with you made you happy, then I'm glad I'm alive to share with you the feelings inside.GLAD I FOUND YOU.LOVE.YOUR DEARESTART. Faisal
FINDING MYSELF
written at Monday, February 4, 2008
mood- boring.music- Long Walk Home by THIS DAY AND AGE" I found myselfwanting for morepeeking through the doorthis angel in disguisedescended from the heavensright in front of my eyessets my heart on firethis love I so much desireI found myself, I found myself, I found myselffalling for you right from the startsomething special i knewwont break us apartI love you sojust so u knowI cant live with myselfif you'd gone awaywill you please stayby my sidedearest Rheayou are my lightdon't leave me nowdon't leave me nowI found myself, I found myself, I found myselfI found myself someone I could live withthinkingnot on impulseactingnot on reactioncherishnot reminiselearningand understandingI found myself, I found myself, I found myself"~ to my dearest, I miss you so much. Love you lots. =D
jealousy
written at Saturday, February 2, 2008
mood- sickly tiringmusic- Teenage Dirtbag by The WheatusI'm sick.
